For the good that I will to do, I do not do, but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. Romans 7:19 (NKJV)
You are a believer. The deepest yearning of your heart is to know, serve, and please God. But before you trusted Christ, you had a severe problem with anger. You still do. Before salvation, you grappled daily with depression. Now as a believer, you still are easily discouraged. You commit yourself to study the Bible, pray regularly, memorize Scripture dealing with your particular albatross, read books, and listen to tapes.
Sometimes you have temporary conquest but almost always eventual relapse. It all can lead to a very frustrating circle of resolve and regret. Although you became a new spiritual creation in Christ at salvation, your mind, emotions, and habits were not automatically transformed. Once saved, you realize that these old patterns are not compatible with your new identity. Your natural response then is to do all you can to improve your BEHAVIOR.
Such effort is admirable and makes you feel a little less guilty, but it doesn’t work very well. The root cause requires a radical approach to your familiar problem-solving techniques.